Ambition
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Ambition
I dare to take a bite out of this life
And when the juices bubble and stream in my mouth
I am sent into a frenzy
I like to dance to my pulse
I like the way the world opens up
Call it a youth's natural ambition
But I can hear the music
The sweet pull
Someone's waving a torch in the distance
Of this dark tunnel society dwells
I see it,
and I'm coming
Tell me why I should stifle what seems to be me
In essence
Confusingly delicious
I don't always have to understand
Just answer the voice with courage
the voice ready to defy "reality"
Like a god of it's own kind in it's own right
I am not going to fight
I'm going to do what comes so naturally
Seduced by emptiness
I'll fill this page with me
Feasting on fictional food
Go ahead and ask me what feels more real
Obstacles of any size are a joke
which is why a crazy laugh tickles the back of my throat
Nothing is greater than what stirs within
and while that is both frightening
I'll tell you as I've said before
Drunk on ambition
I am invincible
Shredding an existence that would disgrace this drive
I bury my teeth in the meat of what is promised
What is in me cannot relent
Terrifyingly beautiful
You are looking at the face of Ambition
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Thank you ahorseback! I've been trying for sometime to write about an ambition in me, I've always struggled because the feeling is so powerful that nothing sounds right. I decided to post this one because I think I hit it right in a couple lines. And this photo was taken there was something on my mind, something quietly powerful and I thought it almost showed up here on film. The feeling that comes from a comment like yours is food for what stirs inside. I am so glad I could do this, as you have done to me. I have felt you ahorseback.
May I recommend a song for you to listen to my friend, it is very beautiful and I think you would like it, it is called "You Will Make It" by Jem. Peace ahorseback :) Thank you so dearly much... :D
So what is that ambition ,what is it you want Marina . Your strength of coviction is so strong , Tell us what is is.? Again there is such intensity here. It's so obvious you could be a writer !
What is it? my friend it is 'to be'. To be what I am, to climb that peak and know the view. To reach the climax of what I can become in this life. To know if in the sky I have wings, if in the sea I have fins... To know what I am and where I belong. I enjoy writing but is it my place? Something just started to click in my head last night. I can write, and suddenly I began to realize that the word 'could' was not a fantasy, but a real and rational conjure. I've always had stories in my heart, but the obstacle was whether I could deliver them to the stage of mind for someone else. I went back and read the little I had of my novel. Realizing time is still my friend it was good work, it had a very real potential. And I am just starting to see that for the first time.
What I want is to ride the swells inside and belong to my heart's tide. I want to know why I am this way, why I am so thirsty if not to bring me where I'm suppose to be. Bring me to that place, that person, this cause... There is something inside me that I love and fear, because if I can't feed it the world than it will surely gobble me...
You go girl:0) Ambition is a nectar that we all taste and crave as young and upcoming ladder climbers. I am semi-retired now, but AMBITION was my middle name between the ages of 17-40 and I was fortunate to reach the pinnacle of different careers I enjoyed with much success.
I admire ambitious people as long as their ambition isn't destructive ambition. There are many greedy, selfish, unethical people in the work force, like sharks they feed on the weak.
I admire those who are professional, ethical, honest, fair, giving and hard working dedicated to help others in their climb. This poem is filled with ambition and the look on pretty determined face light up your eyes and that is where the hunger starts. Good luck and soar with the eagles, but never forgot how you got there:0)
Thank you saddlerider1, my dreams lay in helping others, my business I am starting is in fact a charity. And after that I want to launch into protecting the oceans I love. Ethical enough for ya? haha :D Thank you so much for your kindness and wisdom. I still think my creativity comes second to my wish to help, my ideals and ethics are very big part of who I am.
I love to hear of others who never sacrificed their drive, their need and call to be all that was put in them. Retire? I imagine folks like you and I will never truly know the word. Stay well and keep sharing your wealth. :)
Marina , If you would be so kind as to listen to an old guy , then please combine the way that you write and think into whatever your endeavors may include. You seem to have such spirit and drive. And remember your love of the water and writing , charity to others can be accomplished without money too . It can all meld into a love , A hobby and a mission all into one. Your ways with words are extremely important and a combination of things could work for you. You are an angel ........with power! One day ...Marina is going to do it too! I can tell.
A friend's faith makes me stronger, so thank you ahorseback. The pen sitting on my desk here is daring me, where as before it was asking... I love art, I love human expression. I'll take what you say to heart, that I can give without physical wealth... If in future I can make a difference WITH my creativity than heaven I will have indeed found, ... maybe, just maybe I have more to offer this world than a willingness to give. Perhaps it is the tool I hold for the cause I know. With the way the world is unfolding Ed, writing is pulling out of me and finding great use, as (I'm beginning to feel) once I would have only dreamed. The creative creature inside is flexing, stretching, ready and wanting me to believe and I'm starting to. And there's power in that, believing, trusting. Thank you so much ahorseback you were one of the very first to find me here and you really have made a difference to this girl :). Thank you...
Ahh Marina , you humble me , and I as many others will be taken in by your magic. I once watched a Woods Hole oceanology ships tour following the whales migration to Georges banks off Nova Scotia , thinking I could really do that . Let what ever you chose to do be a true love !
And then let yourself go , you can be what you want to be. Hugs to you dear. Live on!!!
Your anything-but-cringing-caress of the cosmos wields the wand of wonder so deftly that your life will be spent more hearing the echo of who was that masked woman, than the now of some knowing that "terrifyingly beautiful" bounty of you. But don't spend so much of yourself on ambition that you don't ride the carriage of comprehension long enough to learn that cruelty and caress are the progeny of the same loins....indeed, that one must first of all be empathetic in order to be empty. And empty in order for ambition to have a face; indeed a race to run
Hi Marina, After reading this and other people's comments about it, i agree with them that it is an important subject and ambition is a great thing when used well. I also agree that the photograph you use seems to particularly suit the subject. As for the actual poem i think it is very powerful and also very sensual and beautiful and i think it is one of the best i have read from you. Love it!
Michael.
Marina
Seduced by emptiness
I'll fill this page with me
I love those lines.
I'll not pump you up with sage advice, seems you have plenty. I will say, great job, great talent! and OH MY GOD! What big beautiful eyes you have my dear!
And that face, Angels turn away in jealous rage at the thought of your smile.
GB My friend.
angels do walk among us, trust me...I have seen them. So have you!
fill some pages for me.
Tlmntim9
Tim W
Sorry I missed this one. I like your bravado. It embodies the fearlessness of youth along with it's energy and hope because the road is laid out before you. So many wish they had this level of intensity towards their own being and we can feel the power of the ambition you have. Go for it. Don't wait until it is too late and the shackles of life's responsibilities cluster around you...
So Marina... what feels more real?
By the way you look like a different person in every picture.....
@ahorseback - Yes, but sometimes even to answer that question is not always so easy. I'm not sure my pen and I are my future, but I reckon I shall find out seeing as I continue to dabble. Indeed, make it what I love because it will encompass the majority of my life. Thank you always my friend, stay well. :) That whale adventure sounds amazing.
@The line my mind swam in circles to equate was 'empty in order for ambition to have a face' At first I am disagreeing, for how can ambition come from nothing?
Would not everything come to scratch and play into the sculpture of character with eyes always turned skyward in individual vision. What feasts and hungers in between the two being ambition. Character reaching to grab hold of this rare yet universally known winged creature to propel towards the vision caught in your eyes.
I would say ambition has a lot to do with one's everything rather than anything to do with emptiness.
The rest I should like to say I understand if I can make such a claim. Indeed I believe I will be filling my own ears with that question and so be it for I will always be asking.
And as much as ambition may roar, I believe and trust it is in my 'creative creature' to pull on the reins in the wisdom and enjoyment of coasting in the carriage of comprehension. Thank you for your continued kindness Scriber.
@michael ely - My dear Michael thank you so much! Ambition is a great and dangerous thing to be used and harnessed with caution. And it is always a great prize my friend to know that I have invented a new favorite for you amongst my collection. :D Peace!
@tlmntim9 - :D My eyes have never been described as big before, but people do seem to see something intriguing behind them. Your compliment leads this girl to blush and beam :D Fill pages for you? My friend it is promised. People like you are in the artists brush and stroke, in this case, my pen.
My sincerest apologies to you and everyone else for taking so long to reply. Between my charity meetings and work then to be sick in bed where at my home there is no internet, I look very forward to all the catch up! You'll be hearing more from me soon my friend! :D Take care, hugs!
@The Suburban Poet - "the shackles of life's responsibilities cluster around you" Love it, and it is so true. But youth deal with their own difficulties, meaning financially :P. And as to your question :) Truthfully I'm not always sure. But when I wrote this, in the 'creative creature's' skin it certainly feels like this world that writing is far more real. Allowing things without lips to whisper... Perhaps I should post my poem about the world writing opens up...
Thank you for the comment as always my friend.
About my photos, all my life I've been considered very *cough* beautiful, that is still very hard for me to say. But I've never been photogenic, told I look way better in person. So perhaps the camera can just never get it right. Needless to say, that has to change for modeling :P In my experimenting I've realized I enjoy taking pictures of human subjects and doing portraits far more than the modeling itself. However with only brothers I get few volunteers. Stay well my friend, expect me visiting you soon! :D
Every age has it's problems. They say if you can write a check to solve a problem then it's not a problem. As you age you become confronted with things that money cannot solve. So enjoy your youth and find happiness in things money cannot buy because toys and big spaces under a roof bring their own set of problems.
You should post that poem. I feel very connected to life and the world when I write about things. It wakes my mind up and sharpens my nerve-endings. I don't want to float through life unaware and numb. I'm not sure what this gets me but I like the feeling of constant connectivity to life whether it is good or tragic. I don't want to dodge anything regardless of it's affect on me.
And my comment about your pictures was a complement in the truest sense. I think the different sides you show in your look is a window into the different sides you show of your mind. The camera is getting it right and I wouldn't worry about that... ever....
I will, and am :) Thank you, that is very good advice again. Yet believe me, when money is the only thing in your way, that is very frustrating BECAUSE you have everything money can't buy.
I will post it I think, but before I can dive back into Hubs I have still some work to do for my aspiring charity. It is very exciting, yet huge and to sometimes not freak out I have to just take a step at a time... slow and sure. Writing is amazing because of all it lets us, trains us 'not' to miss in this world. Keep on Poet :D
And thank you so very much, perhaps your right I am a girl of many sides after all as I believe most individuals are. Thank you my friend :) I am wishing the best for you and am looking forward to your posts :) And I will get there, trust me. :D
Marina, you write very well, and with an honesty that is refreshing. I have to echo saddlerider's comments: Soar with the eagles, but don't forget who you are...it is too important. :) Up and awesome.
Thank you Genna, wise words for anyone. Thank you for your support and I find I am not able to write unless honest. Two years there were when I could not write any sort of lyric and I sat frustrated as crumpled paper lay at my feet. I had conquered other areas of my life and yet in the process had let go of a part of me. I began the journey back bettered and eventually came to write 'Fire to Stone' which released the flood gate and poems have been able to flow forth since. Thank you Genna, I'll be visiting you soon :)
I am almost at a loss for words at this piece....... So many times i am disheartened at the youth of today, but your courage and insight, the very essense of you shouts loud and clear and my faith is renewed with your energy, your very being. I am sure you are what they call an "old soul" it reverberates from you like a pebble tossed into a lake, amazing... Love, love, love the photo on this piece too, it's almost haughting. I'll happily be following you. :)
It's been a while since I read your work. This did not disappoint. Very evocative words and intriguing questions posed here, revealing some of the inner drive found within your poetic voice. You seem very aware of what you wish to accomplish as a writer; I wish you the best in those goals. Take care.
...well I am looking at the face of a great writer and a person who really knows how to craft words into a veritable buffet of poetic soul food! Bravo to you - not anyone can do what you do - and you do this so well!
@writinginalaska - What a comment *smile* I dearly look forward to sharing with you. I understand, as I too coil in this thing called Hub. My virtues have found little place among my peers, but I have faith, I must. There is a saying I heard in a movie once which I love and cannot quite remember, but it was saying that the mass was stupid while the individual intelligent. And this is so very true upon my experience.
And thank you, I rather liked this photo also because when I look at it I feel as though something came through, something ME actually appearing for just the eye to see. Thank you so, so much and I look forward to knowing you better as an artist. Peace :)
@Doug Turner Jr. - Doug! My apologies for it being so long! And as you would, you see what I wish and contrive to make this piece. Thank you, and know that I too am always wishing the best for you and your incredible mind.
@epigramman - Whatever my abilities so long as it is always enjoyed by me and perhaps occasionally by others I will continue. You and my many friends here keep me going in pursuits of greater ability and greater understanding. Feeding me with the wonderful "veritable buffet soul food" as another great writer has said, you. Cheers! :)
Turn the voice of the dreamer up, turn the voice of the doubter down. -Marcia Wieder
I enjoyed the energy of this!
love the energy this poem gives off, great choice of words, very strong.
@Randy Behavior - Thank you, I'm often caught up in a high of life, I keep myself busy and in it. I promise my friends here on hub that I'll be back to write more and more because I love it SO MUCH but my new charity business has me very busy right now. But I'll be visiting you at some point as soon as I am able, thank you so much!!! :)
@Nikkij504gurl - Thank you for giving me one of the biggest compliments I can as a writer wish for as you have read a few of my pieces and left me with your voice of encouragement! Thank you so much, I'll be coming back to hubs very soon! :)
your very welcome marina. it was a pleasure reading your work and i cant wait to read some more
Dear Marina,
You Are A Writer! Strong, Beautiful poem.
Believe. For someone so young, and you are, you have much wisdom, compassion and talent to share ~ through any and all of your endeavors. We, your followers, believe in You!
Whatever your thirst, your vision, your dreams ~ and yes, even your fears ~ you have only to ask the Universe.
There is courage in your heart.
There is love in your soul.
There is freedom in your choices.
And, replied the Universe, "Your wish is my command."
~With Much Love and Respect, Scarlett
This is a great hub, bold and confident and not afraid of the challenges of life.
@Scarlett My Dear - Your comment like the stare of dawn on my heart fills me with joy, thank you. My eyes watered with a beautiful emotion of hope, warmth... I hope the promise I am making my life also says to you and everyone, that I believe in you... because I do. I believe in what we are as human beings, what we can aspire to. And it doesn't matter if I'm wrong, because once you feel and wrap your soul's fingers around what you're here to do then you're going to do it, that's all, that's it and it's beautiful and within us all. Thank you so much Scarlett... thank you! :D
@Astra Nomik - Thank you, high on life and drunk on ambition, there is no room to fear... Thank you so much for reading and for your perfect comment. :)
ahorseback Level 7 Commenter 15 months ago
Marina this is awesome , It hit me like a brick from above! Wow. And your picture....so soulfull I might add. You're writing is the essence of poetry! It touched me deeply. I have seen your smile and now a touch of such depth. .....hugs to you.